Caleb's Bio

One summer day when I was about six years of age, the Lord ripped my father from my life in a brutal car-wreck. This event in my life left a horriblegash in my heart. The pain it caused was at times unbearable. Every person alive longs to be whole. They long to be made complete, just as I do. So, for a large part of my life I have tried to fill that gash. Every single thing I latch on too is ripped from my life. Sometimes I feel that I will never be made whole, and my heart will always be shattered. Listen to me, for a few minutes, and I shall tell you of the colossal thing God is doing in my life. For a good amount of time, I was actively involved in a few Internet chat rooms. It was pretty dumb, and I the dumber, but it became my addiction. I know this sounds like a stupid thing, but it attached itself to me. For the first time in along time, I felt like I belonged. I could sit around chatting about video games and whatever, with other people who cared what I had to say. This is the poison that the great deceiver put in my heart. You see, something like this takes hold of your mind then consumes your heart. For a while I wasn’t really Caleb Lightfoot, but I was an avatar on a computer screen. (Avatar’s are the little icons next to your screen name) I felt like I was on the top of the world. Say I would have a bad day; I could simply run to me computer and talk with people who cared. It gave me an emotional high, causing this addiction to latch even deeper in my life. You see, this example proves that anything can become your life’s focus. In order to see how deep I was in, imagine a lake. The water looks soothing and sweet. Spend to long though, and a torrent of water will come and envelope you. Now, an Internet chat room isn¹t necessarily bad, and this one did have moderators, but I soon found myself becoming a different person. My morals began to be compromised. I began to lose focus of what was real. Then, it all changed. The Lord of heaven and earth, the living and the dead, tore my foundation from under my feet. To say I fell would be an understatement, I crashed. But, the Lord used this to draw himself closer to me. Feeling broken and empty, I had a one-person pity party for myself. Then one night, I had a dream in which I had an amazing feelingrevealed to me. For several days I tried to figure out what I was feeling, and then it dawned on me. God had displayed his love to me. He had picked me up from the ashes of my life and set my down in a high place. For the first time in a long time, I felt loved. Not just any love, but soul wrenching, passionate, Agape love, that only the creator can give. The Lord used this, to reorient my life around him. He broke me, to fix me. Now I remember to strive after him, all because of a broken life and a loving dream.